The Desire to Become Human: Collected Works 2021-23, by The Furnace

The Desire to Become Human: Collected Works 2021-23

by The Furnace

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Edition of 50 normal bias C-34 tapes of The Desire to Become Human. Available in four colours (white, canary, cherry, blue). All tapes were stamped at Lavender Dream, then hand-dubbed by Kaiden Jackman. Cassette exclusive artwork is printed in monochrome on high quality card stock, then cut by hand.

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1.	The Furnace and Ariel Ulysses - Always Watching (Desire Update) 03:48	info	buy track
2.	Burden 02:50	lyrics	buy track
Vast sea, waken the beast inside of me Exhale, be the beast you wanna see All hail, king of the rat race Melting skin, drips down my face Be the burden, the burden of the enemy Be the burden, the burden of the enemy Come for their souls, bleed their bodies Drain them dry, bleed their bodies
3.	All Hope 04:03	lyrics	buy track
[unintelligible] All hope is lost
4.	Craters in the Dirt 05:42	lyrics	buy track
Flashing lights Smothering sights Electrified Thinking of home Empty head Red glowing Red eyes In our picture Craters in the dirt Black paint White light Can't get out My mind
5.	a drone 02:02	info	buy track
6.	Die Like This 02:52	lyrics	buy track
Your life Like a roach in the light Better than mine I'm watching you In through your window I'm watching you Watching your life It's better than mine Than I could ever imagine I Sitting in a room of death Swollen Fucking cowards watch me cry Watch me rot I don't wanna rot like this I don't wanna be like this I don't wanna die like this I don't wanna be like them So fucking tired I don't wanna die like this
7.	Hollow Points 03:01	lyrics	buy track
Your life is better than mine I limp around grasping for time Visions impaired, clouded with smoke I'll die here, I've lost all my hope For a better life All I ask for is a better life
8.	Elegant Darkness 04:00	info	buy track
9.	Soulock 03:21	lyrics	buy track
Burning flesh in my eyes I just want to be human Lock is on the chain of my soul At your beck and your call

about

"The Desire to Become Human" is the debut album from The Furnace. Through harsh, overblown industrial pop beats and throat shredding screams, Kaiden Jackman delves into the human psyche in an effort to purge any and all negativity in a cathartic rage. Their debut album features three previously released singles (one featuring a slightly updated mix) and six new tracks worked on between 2021 and 2023 and performed at shows earlier in 2023.

The artist had this to say:
"I find the words difficult to grasp with this project. What has been a few years in the making will be finally unleashed to the world not with a bang, but with a whimper. A bit unfitting for such an explosive sounding project but I feel like anything greater would clash with the vulnerability in my words. A lot of these songs were pulled from very dark points, whether lyrically or instrumentally.

'Soulock' was about my desire to be loved, my feelings of body dysmorphia, my 'desire to be human'. 'Always Watching' was built around paranoia and fear; even if instrumental, the ramblings that went along with it on the Bandcamp single release reflected that. 'Hollow Points' was about both wishing for a more comfortable life and also hoping I can make a change for the better before my time here runs out. In the meantime I sat on instrumentals made in anger, depressive episodes and frustration around the global state of affairs waiting for the right words to hop out to convey these feelings.

At some point I felt like I had to put these out properly, with a full wave of promotion. But I felt like sitting on them for another month to promote my vulnerability like a slick promoter shill felt like the worst thing to do. It's 9:46pm Thursday September 14th and I'm ready to move on. It's time to put these out and take on the next task. I shall conquer; I shall rise. Endless and impossible love."

All songs recorded from January 2021 to September 2023. All songs written and performed by Kaiden Jackman except Always Watching (Written and performed by Kaiden Jackman and Ariel Ulysses).

Special thanks to Mataea, Emily, any other programmers at CJSW who have supported The Furnace and any other Lavender Dream releases over the past few years, Jesse, Moira, Connor and the folks at PAS, Chris, Brad and the people of Bug Incision, Matthew and Pajamas (RVT), Mantis, Elizabeth, the kind people of Still Depths, D. BLAVATSKY, Maggie, Carlos, Max, the people of Bookburner, dreamcrusher, B L A C K I E, William Basinski, Phil Elverum, clipping., JPEGMAFIA, Backxwash, The Body, Lightning Bolt, The Armed, any other bands and artists I’m heavily influenced by and completely ripping off, and Nyomi my beloved.

credits

released September 15, 2023

Kaiden Jackman: Performance, production, recording, mixing, mastering
Guy Ringworm: Artwork

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Lavender Dream is a collaboration between Ariel Ulysses and Kaiden Jackman. All of their music is either free or pay what you want. All support is greatly appreciated.
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